I am so frustated right now. If you read my babling post titled “If my life was a ferris wheel…” you might know what i am feeling. So, as the third year student in university, i am obliged to do internship. Actully internship activity is devided into 3 parts:
1. DOING THE INTERNSHIP, started from June 16th to September 8th. Students are free to choose but the length time must be at least 8weeks
2. CREATE INTERNSHIP REPORT, started from September (after internship done) until November.
3. PRESENT THE INTERNSHIP PROCESS IN FRONT OF LECTURERS, it is scheduled at March 2015
So, at first i did internship at one of State-Owned Enterprise (BUMN) which works in concrete industry with the help of my father, this company once became my father’s client whatsoever. They accepted me because there were hard feeling if they didnt accept me, or in another word: They forcely accepted me. Whereas this company never ever ever accepted internship in finance division before. So i am the first.
One week, i did nothing just sitting there alone 9 hours per day. I cried a lot because i was so depressed, i am a cheerful person and when i got nothing to do or nothing to talk or no one to talk to, i am gonna be sick, and i was.
Two weeks, i tried to bear it. I thought positively, maybe eventhough i didn’t do anything at least i could collect some procedural information like how to do reconciliation or input espt, overall, how they worked. But they didn;t give me anything. It was all labeled “CONFIDENTIAL”. Everytime i asked something, the people looked at me like i was sort of thief who would steal company’s asset. :( I was crying everynight
Three weeks, i still did nothing. The climax was when there was a new employee. What made me hurt was the people directly told this new comer how to work, how to operate financial program on the computer, how to do journalize, how to do everything. HELLO i was there 3 weeks and they didn’t teach me anything. This new comer was just here 2 days and she got everything, even my cubicle. I moved to the corner sitting with the archieve documents :( FINALLY i couldn’t bear it no more. i was hurt deeply. I need to do something.
When i met Asni and Ruth, they told me their activities, what they learnt at their internship’s place. OMG. There were too much activities, and i had nothing. :(((((((( I have been left behind. My classmates did their intern well, they got activities to do, they learnt new things that was not taught in class, and at least they got something to do. It hurts so bad.
Finally, today i try to find another place to do my intern program. Time is ticking. I don;t even resign from my intern’s place yet :(
My father recommend me to intern at his colleague’s friend, it is KAP. And you know what the owner said when i came there?
“Actually, i dont accept anymore intern, since there are already 2 interns here. I accept you because i know your parents are. So do not do anything wrong, because if it is not because of your parent, you can not eat your food. And since you live in Cakung, it’s a traffic area, and i warn you not to come late here”
“Sebenarnya, saya tidak menerima magang lagi, karena sudah ada 2 magang disini. Saya terima anda karena saya kenal orang tua anda. Jangan macam-macam karena jika bukan karena orang tua anda, anda gak bisa makan dari sini (What the?). Dan karena anda tinggal di daerah macet, jadi jangan sampai datang semaunya”
First, she is not my father’s friend, so my father has a friend, and his friend know this woman who runs KAP.
After i got barked like that, i was shocked.
So, i met Tiara and her Boyfriend, Alwan at campus. We called all Public Accountant Offices (KAPs) and the answers were like:
“Sorry we dont accept intern”
“Sorry we are at low peak right now, maybe you can call again after Idul Fitr?”
I am so depressed. I am crying everytime i am alone, my mind automatically wanders off to this case. Is there any KAP for me? My classmates do this easily, but why i dont?
I know my capability well. Do not underestimate me. My GPA so far was 3.8. I speak and write english fluently enough. I have done Brevet A and B. I always eager to learn something new. I do everything perfectly. But why God why?
I dont want to suudzon to Allah’s plan. I never want to.
This situation is killing me.
If i get no where to go until this week. I probably will do my intern next year :(((( which means i graduate more than 4 years :((((
I DONT WANT IT !!!!!!!!!!!
There are 3 pressure points:
1. Resign from the current company
2. Find KAP
3. Letter business, you know to get a intership letter from university you have to go here and there, ask someone to sign this and that. And we, student is only allowed to ask 1 letter per person. GRRRRRRRRR It takes 3 days to a letter to be done by BAAK.
I don’t know my life would be like what, but one thing for sure i want this intership thing works smoothly :(
“Robbisrohli sodri.., wayassirli amri… wahlul ‘uqdatammillisaani yafkahul kauli…..
Ya ALLAH Lapangkanlah dadaku, mudahkanlah urusanku, lancarkanlah lisanku dan baguskanlah ucapanku…”